Multiple Choices

I lie wide awake in the darkness.  My body rests, but my mind races. So many questions and so many possible answers.  It’s like a giant multiple choice test,  and I hurry to make the proper matches.  My body moves to find a more comfortable position.  The questions turn to thoughts and the thoughts pour out and fall like raindrops into a stream of semi-consciousness where they spread out in hundreds of directions.  I jump easily from one to another until the stream finally slows and I float happily with a single thought on my way to the land of dreams.  My arm falls asleep and my body must move again in order to stop the tingling.  The questions form anew and I lie awake again in the darkness.  My body moves toward sleep but my mind continues to wander in search of a thought that will take me to dreamland.  I am almost there and yet I am watching from afar.  I see the cycle.  I’m caught in it and I can not escape.   I wonder if I will remember this in the morning.   These thoughts are keeping me from my goal but I know if I do not write them down they will be forgotten.    My body resists, it does not want to awaken.  I lie, wide awake again, in the darkness.